Friday, March 26, 2010

Adventure Jack !

I can still feel the jeg-lag ! ..I'm already sleepy by midnight and I wake up by 8 am, well rested and all.

In the morning I don't have to run to work, and I get in the office too early for it to be true 8)

Speaking of work, after more than 3 years, I finally decided to resign from my current employment, or rather, not to sign the new contract starting from April.

This time around I felt that there wasn't any clear plan for me.. nor a hint of getting any sort of promotion.
The salary was also a problem... because I was going to get a small decrease, apparently because of my behavior towards management in some sad issue that I had to deal with, and also because of me often coming late to work (though nobody warned me on time that being 10-20 minutes late was going to affect my salary).

Let's say that I understand the protocol and that I take responsibility and the punishment.. then were are the plussed factored in ?
If there is space for a nominal decrease, then is there any allowance for a nominal increase due to my performance ? ..apparently not.

One problem is that the situation is rather confusing in my department... every year a lot of things change, bosses change. This year especially I felt like there wasn't anyone being able to judge my work, my potential and to get me to the next step... because new bosses are always busy doing paperworks.. and whatnot.
I've also heard that the same thing for which I got an admonition was also the reason why there was no time left to properly think about my career.

Another thing I don't like is the substantial changes happening.. with western companies buyouts, it feels like the Japanese bosses are suffering major inferiority complexes towards western companies.
It may be true that technology around here is lacking.. but all this dealing of people as human resources and the dilution of the brand is likely to bring less happiness in the Tokyo offices.

I've been feeling trapped between business strategies and generally unappreciated. Not so much for what I did, but for what I'm capable of doing.
By dealing with companies as departments and technology provider units, the individuality is taking a hit... sometimes the ideas and work of 2-3 people can make a world of difference..  but that is not possible in a corporate world made of canned engines, and now even of canned "spontaneous" research...

..corporate heads just won't accept the idea that some things can't be bought just by throwing around money. I plan on spending a couple of months to see what's around and to prepare my next move !



  1. Open a pizza restaurant. :)

    Anyway back to the rants of the expat, some interesting points of view:

    - Ideas for videogames are really basic, like I would like to be ble to drive my car, only on the TV (lead to gran turismo).

    - If you are late you are not part of the team.

    - If you do not say good morning when you enter the office, you are not part of the team.

    - If you do not attend company parties you are not part of the team.

    Another interesting point of view was related to the fact that people seems to mimic TV and the typical conversation is a carbon copy of what you hear on TV.

    What do you think?

  2. Make sure your new employer sends you to GDC next year.

    Maybe you should apply with Intel?

  3. Mr. Freddy,

    Ideas for games.. meaning something easy to make and that enough people are compelled to buy for a good enough price 8)

    I think that my being late isn't a big deal within the team.. because I'm seen as a senior and somewhat as a leader.. and I'm also leader for the 5 pm recess (or merenda ;) ..were some of us jollily go downstairs to get some snacks and comment on the local fauna 8P

    I wouldn't know about TV because I hardly ever follow Japanese TV.. and the foreign coworkers they probably just follow whatever selected serial TV shows they find on cable or on the Internets ;)

    Mr. Paul,

    Companies such as Intel and NVidia are here mostly for doing support.. but I don't want to do that 8)

    ..on the other hand, if one of those companies would care to have some multi-core renderman-like renderer developed for themselves.. I'd be certainly open to that and probably able to gather a small team of engineers and artists here in Tokyo ;)

  4. Wait, wait, I hade a great idea.
    You could open your own company and make..... the next great GAME ENGINE. :)

  5. NNOOOOOOOOOOO !!!!!!!!


  6. Dai, c'ho gia' il nome:

    Meko-Ionic game engine :)

  7. ..with a name like that, it wouldn't gather professional respect in Italy.. but then again, in Italy you don't get respect by being respectable 8)

  8. Call it Motor instead of Engine.

  9. In italy you get respect only if you are an ignorant fuck, so no big deal. Unless you want to be a soccer player, a person famous for being famous and the like.

    On the other end the engine name sounds both modern and the secret moniker shows awesomeness. :)

  10. Paul,
    hohohoh.. that's a good idea indeed...

    Ignorant fuck or soccer player.. what's the difference again ? 8)

  11. Nothing, that's exactly the point. :)

  12. This must be April Fools ... but alas, it isn't. Well Adventurer-Kaz, where's the next exciting episode? 8P

  13. Something nice for you: Renderer 2.x

  14. woo.. interesting link indeed.

    I have to post some updates.. but I've been very busy.. with my sister and her bf coming to Tokyo for a vacation 8)


    kazrace port to OpenGL is pretty much done BTW 8)

  15. We've noticed ... nice. :)